Yesterday I came home so tired that I had no energy at all to stay on the balcony appreciating the moon and feeling its energy. Usually I would have forced myself to do it, to find energy somewhere inside to celebrate one of the most important full moons of the year, but this was not case.
Yesterday was the Guru Poornima, the full moon in which the Guru (the one who removes the darkness) is celebrated. Also, it was the longest Lunar Eclipse of the 21st Century. I’m not really an expert on astrological events, though I do feel the energy of the moon strongly in my body and I do believe, everything, not only planets and stars, but even the drops of rain, is interconnected and while the wind is blowing making a leave fly somewhere in the woods in Vietnam, there is a chain of reactions that will touch every single existence in this world. So, yes, I believe that the moon affects not only the tides in the oceans, but also our whole body with its mind patterns and emotions.
The reason why I was not able to celebrate such an important event yesterday was because some unexpected changes have come to us in the last few days, and those changes in addition to our already packed calendar ended up being an explosion of non-stop energy of producing, creating, resolving and planning during hours in front of the computer.
As some might know, last year, I accepted the responsibility of running a Yoga Studio together with my partner in New Jersey. Putting aside my resistance of being in charge of a Yoga Studio one more time (because I ran a Yoga Studio in the past in Costa Rica and I promised myself to not do it again) I put my mind, body and heart into it, because it seemed to be the vehicle for us as a couple to be able to grow together and manifest other dreams.
When I realized I was feeling like a bird in a cage and how much my wings were missing to fly over the lands of my free soul, I found support in my partner and we started to build the necessary changes for us to be where our heart belonged. And I’m not talking about a physical place, but about a path. Clearly I was also missing the lands that have became the route of my nomadic heart: India, Spain, Italy and Costa Rica, but beyond that, there was a need to create something that was more truthful to my soul, I had so many sparkles in my mind that needed a land to sprout. Those sparkles together with my partner's became the projects in which we have been putting our energy, time, experience and heart this year: Sacred Self School of Yoga & We Nomad Souls Retreats.
With all of the changes we realized we were not really putting enough focus into the studio we had in NJ, and thought the most reasonable thing to do was to sell it. We really wanted the studio to be transferred to new owners that could keep providing some goodness to the community, and we found them. So, while I was focused on building programs, courses, curriculums for Sacred Self, Brian put most of his energy into delivering the studio to it’s new parents.
For reasons beyond our control, the sale didn’t go through. If there is something we have learnt together, is that there is no point in resisting what is being put in front of us by the Universe. We can perform our actions, and make a true effort to make things as we believe they will be the best, but the universe is always wiser and has its own ways of directing the course of the river of life. So, we were only one step from finally signing the purchase agreement, and suddenly we realized it was not going to happen. After some minutes of mourning the dreams we had made around what to do after the sell was completed, we started to see more clearly and completely embraced the change of course with honest and humble hearts.
I truly believe there is a reason beyond what we can see right now for us to not sell the studio. For the moment it feels a little bit overwhelming for us, as there are many things to be done with our current projects in Costa Rica, to which now we are adding the task of managing a yoga studio from far in the most difficult season of the year, summer.
This week, we have just finished a Yoga retreat in Costa Rica, that happened after a workshop in New Jersey, that took place after the kickoff of the Sadhaka Program in Costa Rica, all in the lapse of 3 weeks, which was followed by us taking back many of the managing responsibility of a business to which we were not putting the energy it deserved. This week was about making the decisions we consider the right ones to make of the studio not only a profitable business but specially a place to share with the community. Balance Yoga Studio, our studio in NJ, has amazing teachers, and is a peaceful and warm space where the community can come to find quietness, to connect with their bodies, minds and hearts, to disconnect from the noise of the daily life, to learn tools for self transformation and become their happiest and most truthful self.
So this week I realized how grateful I am to be part of it, and I want to give my best for it to keep growing for the goodness of all! Yes, this week was crazy, getting back to all the system admin, marketing, management and planning of the studio, while building for Sacred Self what I believe is becoming an amazing curriculum, while teaching in the Sadhaka Program, while planning our next workshops, retreats and trainings for 2019 and 2020. But beyond this craziness, I see there is a purpose within everything.
Yesterday was full moon and I was not able to sing or dance to the moon, but I think actually the opposite happened. The Moon has been there the whole week dancing in the sky for us, infusing us with its powerful brightness of inspiration, nurturing us with the intuitive and serene energy. Yesterday was the day to celebrate the Guru and I was not able to honor my teachers whom have being crucial in what I am today and in what I share with others, but they have been here silently reminding me about the purpose, about the path, about trusting and love!
So, today I sit in my balcony and observe the night while I celebrate everything as it is! I love my life, I love the chaos and the crisis, and the flush of innovative energy that comes after so much movement. I embrace the cycles of the Universe, with its beginnings, its developments and its ends, and overall, I celebrate and embrace change.
